Dead And Alive

[Quackers]

Title: Dead and Alive
Rated: PG
Genre(s): Tragedy
Summary: There's just been a bombing in her area, she was involved, she nearly died but the doctors saved her. Now she's stuck between living and dieing, she has to choose one or the other, but what one will she choose?
Author's Notes: I wrote this after the bombing in london, I was so affected by it that I wrote a story about it.

[Quackers]

Everyone says I’m lucky, they say that I’m lucky to have survived the blast, to still be alive but I don’t feel lucky, I don’t feel lucky at all. They say that I’m lucky to be alive but I don’t feel like I’m alive, I feel dead, as if I’m not really living, it’s just a phase. So many other people died, I was one of not many people who survived but that still doesn’t make me feel lucky, it makes me feel worse, why did I have to survive and them die? I can hear so many people around me, talking and crying and wishing me luck and happiness but I don’t think I can ever be happy, not anymore. I have so many people that care about me, so many people that love me but that won’t change the way I feel. I shouldn’t be here; I should’ve died with the others. I did in a way, I died inside but my body fought back when it shouldn’t have. I was saved when I didn’t want to be saved.

There is no point in living when you’re already dead. There’s no point in living when you feel so bad about surviving. There’s no point in living when you feel like you can’t move on in life anymore. There’s no point and so that is why I’m not staying in this world, I’m leaving and this time I’m not coming back.

Mum, I love you more than ever, you’re the best mum I could ever ask for and I know that if I ever needed anything you would always be there for me but now if you want me just look in your heart and you’ll find me. Please tell Jason that I love him and that I will always be with him, helping him through life, I know he’ll find it hard without his big sister around to help him but I know he will get through it and turn into the best man in the world and make me as proud as I could ever be. Wherever you are Dad, I love you and I always will, I don’t know what happened to you all those years ago but I know that you always loved me and I hope you still do. Maybe I’ll see you sooner than I think, for I don’t know if your dead or alive or both, like me. Sarah and Jodi, you’re the best friends anyone could ever ask for and I love you so much, you’ll always be in my heart and I hope I’ll always be in yours. I know how much you’ve already been crying and if I could I’d be crying now but you know I can’t, because of the burns but I’m crying a river inside. Karl you were my true love, I treasured you and I always will but I don’t want you to stop loving other people because you loved me. I want you to move on with your life, find someone else and have a happy life, just as long as you don’t forget me. You’re only fifteen years old and you deserve the best life you can get. Doctors and Nurses, I want to thank you for saving me but I didn’t want to be saved, you helped me along the way but it wasn’t enough. I love everyone in this world you’ve all been so kind to me but I just have one last word to say to the world.

Whoever finds it funny to see so many people in pain and suffering, to kill so many innocent people has a sick mind, a sick and horrible mind and should be killed for what they did. Whoever did make the blast happen, will pay, they won’t get away with the damages they’ve made, they’ll be caught and they will pay with their life.

Goodbye World.

[Shades]

In the first paragraph you repeated yourself alot, but still very good, great job lol unfortuantly the bombings happened on my birthday which is odd, every year around my b-day something tragic happens, keep working at it and I look forward to your future stories and poems.

-Shades, Admin.

[Phantom Rose]

Very emotional piece... It was a bit repetitive in some parts, but you might've been aiming to put more emphasis on those things, I don't know.

Great job.