Post by Trajet on Nov 8, 2006 4:00:43 GMT -5
So it's over before it starts
And I was so damn happy and now I hurt
I can't forgive you or forgive myself
And if you were nicer, you could've helped
And if I was nicer, I could've helped
This is not a dream when I'm crying on the back steps
This is not a joke when I'm lighting myself on fire
This is not a gift when I find that you'll betray me
This is not a fantasy when I realize that
I hate myself
I hate my life
I hate the world
For making me cry
I hate the earth
I hate the sky
I hate my heart
I hate my mind
You weren't here when, when I fell
I was discouraged, cause I'm so damn frail
I never told you, told you that
I hated you for all you had
This is not amends cause I found out all your weaknesses
This is not a truce cause you asked me for forgiveness
This is not a start cause you think that we're on level playing fields
This is not a bargaining chip cause you've realized that
I hate myself
I hate my life
I hate the world
For making me cry
I hate the earth
I hate the sky
I hate my heart
I hate my mind
You had a family, with love and trust
I had nothing, but couldn't give up
You were a child with fun and games
I was an outcast with only my name
This is the beginning of the end for me
I will cry myself to sleep tonight
You will sleep across the hall from my room
You'll wonder why I had to die so soon
I loved you more
Than my words could say
I always cared
I always watched for you
I never slept unless you were okay
I hated myself for leaving you this way
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And I was so damn happy and now I hurt
I can't forgive you or forgive myself
And if you were nicer, you could've helped
And if I was nicer, I could've helped
This is not a dream when I'm crying on the back steps
This is not a joke when I'm lighting myself on fire
This is not a gift when I find that you'll betray me
This is not a fantasy when I realize that
I hate myself
I hate my life
I hate the world
For making me cry
I hate the earth
I hate the sky
I hate my heart
I hate my mind
You weren't here when, when I fell
I was discouraged, cause I'm so damn frail
I never told you, told you that
I hated you for all you had
This is not amends cause I found out all your weaknesses
This is not a truce cause you asked me for forgiveness
This is not a start cause you think that we're on level playing fields
This is not a bargaining chip cause you've realized that
I hate myself
I hate my life
I hate the world
For making me cry
I hate the earth
I hate the sky
I hate my heart
I hate my mind
You had a family, with love and trust
I had nothing, but couldn't give up
You were a child with fun and games
I was an outcast with only my name
This is the beginning of the end for me
I will cry myself to sleep tonight
You will sleep across the hall from my room
You'll wonder why I had to die so soon
I loved you more
Than my words could say
I always cared
I always watched for you
I never slept unless you were okay
I hated myself for leaving you this way
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Tell me what you think